Loose Thoughts: "Accidentally Stupid"

Sometimes I question whether some people with whom I spend my time think I'm as smart and skilled as I know I am. (Just the fact that I wrote such a complicated sentence should be proof enough.) 

So, I often act casually as I try to prove that I am indeed smart or skilled with this or that thing. In doing so, I frequently make mistakes that wouldn't have happened if I had not tried so hard to look casual. 

Therefore, I trip on the words I speak as I explain something complex or I tip over lamps while trying to accomplish daring dance feats or I cruise over curbs while taking sharp corners in a residential street. 

Sometimes my brain is a paranoid robot of insecurity that spins into an electric cyclone of dismayed gears. But most times it's not. I like those times the best.

Getting Laid Off: Part 2

Our company’s NY office called us on Wednesday and, as expected, they laid off everyone in the LA office. A representative from the NY office came in that morning and started taking inventory on all the valuables in the office before they closed it down. I felt no ill will towards her. After all, she was most likely laid off yesterday! COMMERCE!!

I helped her take inventory and she sent the corresponding list and photos to the NY office. I suppose they’ll try to sell all the items to help pay off the many debts the company owes to creditors, vendors and property owners (the company still owes two months worth of rent for the LA office and, I'm told, a couple months worth of rent in the NY office). The value of the inventory might amount to about $6000, which doesn’t even come close to paying everything off. As we took inventory, we were briefly interrupted by a phone call from our building manager. She notified us that we were finally being evicted. Now, that's good timing.

This is the end, beautiful friend
Wednesday was our final day at the office. Before we left for the very last time, we all went to Hooter’s and had a lunch of beer, wings, onion rings, and sandwiches. We laughed together about the company’s lackluster leadership and poor financial decisions. We laughed about the vendors and creditors that might never see the money owed to them. We laughed at ourselves for losing our jobs. Laughter is what happens when there’s nothing left you can do to save yourself.